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i deleted 2 previous posts cos its short n dumb. haha.

micheal jackson - you're not alone is good. introduced by steph de, go download okay? when listening to this song, suddenly filled with mixed emotions thinking whether am i alright or not. happened quite recently bah, but nvm :D im okay anyway, jus that i kept thinking and thinking. cos its all in my head, i keep thinking over and over again. maybe i'll be alright after listening to pussycat dolls. haha bleah =P dun worri steph, i wont get influenced de, i know wad u mean :) thanks anyway :)

sometimes, i dono if wad im thinking are true or not. i felt betrayed, i felt those are lies. but i pretend not to know bahs. i cannot accept that if a person tells a lie to me, which i rather not know lor. its better to know the truth than a lie. but nvm lah, no matter what u say, i'll still believe u, cos i promised u that i will.

maybe someday, i'll be like "bonnie and clyde". how nice it would be though. but its hard to find a guy that i am able to rely on now, telling him my problems. im jus satisfied with things now. i hope some things do change bah. i wan those to be better, but i cant control it. nvm, i'll be contented if its like this forever :)

life is a very thin thread and it only takes a second to snap it.


enough of all those emotional stuffs. LOL








i'll be jealous if u owe this phone, and i'll kill u if u buy it after seeing this. hahahahahaha =P
very nice right? too bad the speaker sucks lor. sms i nt sure, perhaps if u get used to it jiu okay liaoz. Dolce & Gabbana v3i gold phone!!!!!!!!!!!!! limited edition, but i know mum will not get that phone for me lor. bleah.

WEEE

today is a happy happy day. haha. im happy :D

i saw a guy carrying silver nike bag le! nice lor. but i still like my white nike bag tt stepfan gave me although it became dirty liaoz. bt its still nice :D

stepfan wants my url but i refused to give him. bleah. sometimes, i think he's good, TO A CERTAIN EXTEND. haha. really. okay i shall not talk too much about this. he's acting like BIG MAMA on the phone nw. mad -.-

i saw guowei the other day. but he didnt see me. hahaha. he still looks the same. and saw justina too. i couldnt recgonise her.

i like pretty girls. i don mean i love them lah, i admire pretty girls. like popstars, but i prefer those outside girls. i feel them pretty in some kind of attraction... lets see...




BOA.




MILLA JOVOVICH.




PARIS HILTON.





NATASHA ATOMIC KITTEN





ZHANG ZIYI






LUCY LIU


okay lah, enough liao, i tink its getting boring. i like jack sparrow anyway. LOL.

everyone had started studying except me. im getting worried.



i love stepfan. gd nite.

east coast.

i went out with stepfan ytd. intend to go to da BBQ bt it was cancelled -.- due to some stuffs lah, bt nvm. craved for long john hot and spicy chicken! finally it came back and i had it ytd. it was not spicy at all. shiok anyway haha.

went east coast to blow blow sea wind. lots of memories lah. chat about the past, kinda miss those feelings.. but those belonged to da past and became the history. LOL. i told him everything and i felt better. took some photos. my flash was very "flashy" until we went blind. LOL and da photos looked soooooo white. LOL post it later lah :)

my godmum wad admitted to the hospital :( i went to visit her jus now. she's fine now, jus waiting for da results. i'll visit her tmr after school bah :D there's foodcourt in da hospital man. they sell some unhealthy food, like mee goreng and those oily food. they should sell healthy food mah. nvm lah, i had the fried fish bee hoon and its good :D and i ate yoghurt icecream. can choose up to 3 fruits to blend it together. not bad not bad.

i promised myself to start studying now but i didnt fulfil my promise lor. nvm lah, im not that kind of studying material. i'll jus face those concequences.

mummy's birthday is coming and i promised to treat her sizzler. i tink i buy present for can better lah. im broke okay and sizzler is not cheap. LOL

i envy ppl with perfect eyesight lor. wearing contacts or specs are so ma fan.


he's lookin at sexy babes.




dont tink i wanna post liaos. it dont look nice either. too bright. i tried editing bt its useless cos our nose and mouth are lost. LOL. i realised both of us have long necks. HAHAHA.

early today.

i woke up at 7.56am today! nidda pei me ah ma go doc. i hope she's alright and be fine. god bless. jus came home at 12 plus den online le.

if u hate me, then hate hate hate lor. LOL. u wont be pretty anymore. i dono who ya refering to, but what goes ard comes ard :) 3 more mths and i can leave sec school le. although i'll miss 5B, im still dont mind leaving. fasta leave man! must not retain no matter what!!!

school anniversary is alright, my last yr le. some grads become pretty and handsome liaoz. haha.
watch pirates of the carribean ytd. not bad lah but its a 3-hrs show. im sitting at the front row which i hate most. i kept fidgeting none stop. headache lor. had some arguements ytd but its alright now bah although im still unhappy. its always the same. sigh*

gonna tk a short nap bah.




. geraldine o7.1o.2oo4 no me ames pero te quiero. - oѮ ` Boηηie & Clydз †

another day has gone.

so fast friday liaox. so fast gonna be august liaox. hai, not prepared for o's yet :(

had CWB todae. dono will flunk not. sian liaoz, cnt go JC lor.. hai. dowan rely on chinese man.. damn. stupid carrots, so disgusting one... zzzzzzzzzzzz............

online, searching for friendster skins, so far seen 1 nice nice nia. finally got one nice de... help steph find too.. haha. probably lata goin her house as i have school anniversary. boring lor. -.- so tired lor..

goin out lata to watch movie. my camera is alright again, shall tk pictures lata :) i neo how to press flash liao lor, bt my camera a bit sot de lah -.-ll

pizza hut has a new pizza, which is cheesy bites stuffed crust pizza. looks appetizing and attractive, tink i wanna try tt out ^^ i like pepperoni, hawaian (is it spelled like this?) and chicken surpeme(spelled like this??) yumyum mouth watering =P

im into spanish songs now, haha. nice music they have. LOL. i still listen to R&B and hip hop and some pop or slow songs, it depends wad i wanna listen to lah.

shall stop here lah, hao sian, haven iron my uniform yet :( tata.

some photos.

jus edited my blog. reset n change a little of it.

im waiting for stepfan to wake up so i can call him as i promised him. skipped school today dued to girl's thing. sian.

cant post and edit any photos as my camera is down. shall post some from my computer.


nice right? edited before de, but i haben master da skills yet. slowly lah haha :D






these are taken quite some time ago, unedited. shall post next time :)

FOOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i met stepfan ytd to eat ba chor mee. finally lah. lol. he's been grumbling that i dowan to meet him to eat tt, nw he gets to go with me. bt he ate hokkien mee instead -.- had stingray and chicken wings also, bt i didnt wan to eat chicken wings. i ate ba chor mee. yum :D i shall bring him to IKEA and eat meatballs next time hehe.

talkin abt IKEA, i went there with my mum and sis ytd b4 meeting stepfan. i wan all da furnitures there! i feel its better then courts. but comparing qualities and materials, courts is better. IKEA is better in designing. i've chose da study table i wanted. my sis chose da bed she wanted bt its too high. shall go tamp de courts and look for her bed next wk bah.

my hp sucks. i nid to charge it everyday cos it goes flat easily. probably i keep using it to sms, bt my sis doesnt nid to charge everyday lor. lousy battery. cheap fone is liddat de lah. :(

had chem practical test today, and i realised im blur like shyt. dowan to mention abt it lah. when it comes to exam i understand da questions. when it comes to class work, i dun understand a single word. dono is i stupid or da paper difficult =.= CL listening is alright also, jus tt 1 question i answered wrongly. nvm lah, wad's done already done.

i realised my entries suck. i dono wad to blog about. i tink its boring, like "once upon a time, far far away, blahblah..." or a long compo. i don like blogging abt wad i did today or where i went or who i met, i'll jus summarized wad i can rmb as i have short term memory. i prefer to say abt facts or wad happen to me or abt food and wad i feel like venting out. i cant simply rmb da stuffs one by one like how many steps i walked to school or how much rice grains i munched today. okay i dono wad im talking.

polar's curry puffs are not bad. i ate 2 of them. but old chang kee's or da katong ones is better.

sometimes, i feel like dropping fnN and buck up on my maths. but its better to have fnN as i dowan to rely chinese for my L1R4. my classmates tink fnN are jus cooking and serve, bt the coursework can make u ZZZ. BORING!!!

i dono wad to blog abt as im getting bored. next entry shall let da fotos do the talking. maybe when im free to edit some photos. im lazy.

i hate ppl who try too hard -.-

sigh-

no matter wad, it just wont stop, wont be solved, cos that "object" is still there, we can never get rid of it. it jus wont make the matter rest. we wont rest too. im jus being sensitve and emotional, thats all. sometimes, things are jus doin for show, but u never feel it in your heart.

at every situation, every stuffs are jus simply blamed to me. i cant be able to fulfill ppl's expectations bah. perhaps what they think of me, are just disappointments. but why cant they think that what situation i am having is are such a ZZZ. no way, cos ppl only judge from the appearance, what they see is wad they think. if u have this kinda ZZZ, will u be happy?

sometimes ppl make mistakes. if u turn LEFT, u will nid to U-turn, but will other cars allow u to? no way. if u turn right, which u SHOULD not, will other cars be happy with u? it shows that u wanna lead ur own way, but wad u do, others will ZZZ.

its that bloody situation of i am now that brings misunderstandings. no matter wad i do, wad i say, u will misunderstood. this kinda relationship suck. (im not saying love or friendship or wadeva relationships)

and when i dint even make a mistake while "DRIVING", ppl still book me. ZZZ. no use.

whatever it is, whatever ur mind is thinking now, whenever i nid to ZZZZZZZZ!!!!!!!!, u wont be able to ZZZZZ. i thought u do. sigh- i thought everythin is alright now, but its jus there, jus like wad mm said.

im jus being emotional, thats all. and sometimes i tink, creating this bl0g is simply wrong.

okay. nvm, ppl wont understand it anyway. the above doesnt refer to anyone, btw.

i jus wanna say, no matter what i did physically, does not reflect and refer what i feel mentally. if only u could understand, not misunderstand, everythin would be alright. but its a nono. then wad can i do? sometimes, i cant be able to decide what i wan to do, u nid to decide for me. but, it only brings misunderstandings. how much do i ever have to endure, for god's sake.

thinking back of da past, i've not been in a misunderstandings situation. ya, like wad i said, thinking back, it started from when im in a ZZZ, den another one is christmas, and then this yr. should be an omen or karma, as they've once been someone special. but one has not anymore. the other 2 are still special, but as i said le, we cant feel it physically, oni can be felt by the heart.

i felt that its a karma bah. in the past, i did not know i have a bad temper when it comes to quarrels. i realised it when ZZZ reflected on me to know wad i did from my past. another ZZZ must have been sick of it. its never too late to say sorry to u. what goes around comes around. and it even happen to ZZZ.

perhaps im always having karma, and i never escape from it. maybe im playing the part of being the bad guy, which i do not feel it until recently. i am the bad guy in this ZZZ lor. sorry, i tink too much bah, perhaps.

im jus being too emotional jus now bah, i shall blog nicely.

had chinese oral ytd. a pass would be good enough for me as its impossible for me to get merit or distinction. its myself that brought upon to this cos i did not practice, and my chinese is not good anyway. nvm, i'll rely on my other subjects. i hope to get a tutor for my maths bah.

i have many ambitions. hairstylist was my first dream bah. like working for someone famous, haha, but its jus a dream bah. i wanted to be a designer, i can draw if i wan, and i can create if im willing, bt again, ppl "kua suey". next was lawyer as im interested, but it goes with the same story line. nvm, its my dream, jus a dream, haha. maybe who knows, i might be a CEO of a big business company one day. or working in a macdonald restaurant, creating a new happy meal set of toys. i cant be able to predict right? LOL

ppl said that if u go fortune telling, it will change or contradict the path that the fortune teller told u. if that's the truth, den i die liaos. hahahaha.

im waiting for my sister to come home =( i wan to eat ba chor mee and "peng" fish! im glad that me and my sis are alright now. she brought me many happenings. haha =D oh ya, i had pizza ytd. yum. i cant live w/o food. i love eating. okay sometimes i dun eat cos of cash problems. but i have lots of cash, i spend half of it on food, some on shopping sprees and the rest i'll save it for future usage =)

stepfan intro me switchfoot's songs. i seldom get to listen to their songs, but he led me and its not bad. ppl should go dl if u wanna hear =) i've started to change my likings of songs. r&b songs are more soothing for me, allows to make me feel better. the pussycat dolls are great also.

i wanna kill all the mosquitoes in the world!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and xiao qiang. hahahaha

a phrase from a song : Cuz it's my night, No stress, no fights, I'm leavin it all behind, No tears, no time to cry, Just makin the most of life.

how nice i can lead this kinda life. well, i shall push everything behind me.whatever happens todae are jus history. it will never repeat again, i hope.

:(

im so tired!!!!!!!!!!! :(

i went jogging with my sis, but went to eat ba chor mee and hokkien mee lo. what's the use of jogging? lol. okay i wan to jog because i wan to build up my stamina, next i wanna lose a lil fatty fatty of mine wad. heehee. okay i shall eat ba chor mee again with stepfan. he force me one lo. hahaha

tmr oral leh, so sian. hai. today coursework B also like shyt -.- or izzit i type too slow. dono lah, flunk bah. hope wont =D

i forgot to bring money to school todae! i brought my purse bt nt my money. haha!

i wanna skip school!!! i hope to fall sick. but i know i wont.. :(

tt idiot dowan to tutor me maths. tutor few weeks jiu say not free. learn wad shyt man! wahlew. steph, u wanna tutor with me? :(

serene, send me da photos!!! when u online le?

tired day :)

i stayed back to watch soccer match. haha. so many goals. 1st time lol

italy won! haha. i dun support france. so many support france so i support italy. i always contradict ppl. LOL. anyway, i won money. luckily it was more than 2 goals man. actually jus nice 2 goals within the 90min. happy happy, can get my jeans. hehe.

tmr's coursework B. jialat liao le. im scared but i cant do anything. jus let fate decide the path im gonna walk. ppl start to study for their work liao, im still slacking like shyt lo. hai. oral on thurs also. argh :(

my sis's mp3 is spoilt. so sad, i cant borrow liaos. guess its dued to da recording we did ytd.

i found some stuffs which turned out to be smth unexpected. well, girls love to gossip, might as well give them something to gossip, might as well let them gossip abt me. i dowan to care liaox.

smoked beef is good. anythin that contained beef is good. haha. i dun favour mutton, bt i wanna try mutton soup. hahahaha. lata gonna have prawn paste chicken and hot plate tofu for dinner! yumyum :D i oso wan to eat famous amous cookies. and the chicken satay. and da ba chor mee!

go listen to Buttons - The PussyCat Dolls. can make u feel less stress.

i decided nt to buy v3x, bt getting v3i instead as it looks nicer. i wanna get the gold colour by Dolce & Gabbana. 100$ more lor. save money :) dowan any 3G phone at the moment until it gets really popular around my friends. cant wait to work too hahaha. dowan to study ar!!!

i have some pink panther's stuffs on my bd. thanks alot :) and i've gt bags, perfume, keychains, clothes, purse and the most wanted present, MONEY. hahah thanks thanks :D

im contented with my life now, i wont mind anymore if there's anything that dun belong to me. what's mine will be there, what's not it will nv meant to be taken by me and leave it there. i dun mind if one day, im left alone. i'll jus have to treasure what i have now and get used to it. i used to expect lots of things, and i want it to be mine, but i've learn i should nt be too xxxxx. well, i jus need more time for my activities bah. personal life, time, and stuffs like that.

i used to be a fragile person, some kind of emotional stuffs in me lah, but i jus became hard, dowan to get involved in complicated situations again. maybe i've started to think hard le bah. or maybe im jus naive or childish that wan things my way. or i tink too much. i wont cry so easily haha :D

yeah, im glad things are kinda over now. real friends dont hide, lie or quarrel. perhaps some misunderstandings had brought us like this, bt im glad we r alright now. cheers :)

!!!!!!!!!

wah lao, i dono germany or portugal win lor. the 3:1 is penalty or golden goal or is within 90 mins????!!!!!! how? i buy 0:0 lei. if 3:1 is after 90 mins i still can gt my money!!!! i dowan to lose!!!! that stepfan suppose to msg to tel me da news bt he didnt! must be i lose till !@#$%^&*() so he dowan tel me lor.. sob :(

my sis finally download Run It - chris brown. she takes yrs to dl. LOL. next is you're not alone by micheal jackson. nice nice :D

i went out with serene 3 times in a row. so happy. not like last yr, only go out 2-3 times in a yr. LOL. went out and talk ... ... hahahaha. "hide and seek?" or "catching" ??? LOL paisey let u wait me 1 hr. long Q ma, cnt blame me. LOL next time if i reach 4.30, i tel u 5 so i wait u la LOL :)

i finish the russell lee TSGS vol 14. i borrow from hanpei. wasnt good thou, but the story behind quite nice bah. i wanna get vol 13 haha. i haven finish sidney sheldon book. my mum said im slow. hahaha. the author book sidney sheldon is good. the way he describe and elaborate the story and climax is BAGUS. although it contained a little of M21 stuffs, but the way he said abt the how the person kena killed is good. hahahahaha im disgusting =
i owe the national library and school library money. LOL

i went to ZOOMIII and wanna get all the stuffs inside. right serene? LOL. but i don like the way the sales ppl serve us. maybe thats the way to do business and make the customers buy but sometimes customers will feel irritated and walk away.

im lazy to upload photos. it will take me lots and lots of time. other day perhaps. i still haven know how to use da photo express. let me figure it out 1st haha

im goin out lata with mum and we r goin to eat crystal jade!!!!!!!!! yumyum.

entry ^^

i've decided to blog smth tt makes sense. LOL i wont blog abt where i go what i do and who i met, i'll jus summarized all those :)

oh ya, i share bet with stepfan on italy.. i hope we can win, so we can have some spare cash to spend on da stuffs we want x) my classmates take germany le, kinda worried if i lose. den my money will be a waste :( bt nvm cos betting is wrong from da beginning. i wanna play mahjong!

i went through many ppl's blog, and half of them kena "blog attack". since u dun like da person, y do u still wna read her blog and make unpleasant comments? liddat den da person u hate will die meh? liddat makes u shiok meh? u dun like da person, u still wna know abt da person's life, jus like u dun like shyt, bt u still wanna eat shyt. hahahahaha. i read it from serene's blog, and this phrase keep appearing in my mind when ppl kena "blog attack".

tmr's my 17th birthday. although i dun have da mood to celebrate this year, bt im still happy cos there's oni 1 more yr to 18. i so wanna be 18. i cant wait. hahaha. im gonna celebrate my 18th birthday. i wont open BBQ or chalet, cos its very ma fan. i might consider if someone sponsor me. LOL. maybe stepfan and me might consider opening a BBQ+chalet next yr, cos our birthday are oni 6 days apart. LOL. he intend to give me a surprise this yr by opening it, but well, some problems.. bt its alright nw :) oh ya, i love presents, do give me okay? =P

i like green. and black. they are good colours. some ppl will tink green is ugly and black is for gothic, bt i tink they are nice colours.

im gonna save lots of cash. after buying 3 items which i wanted, im gonna save all my winnings and allowance. till de end of yr, im gonna go shopping!!!! haha, provided i feel i can pass O's with great results lah.

talking abt O's, i feel scared. really. i don wanna retake. its like i go sec 5 cos of da o level cert, bt in de end i fail like shyt. sad lor. a piece of paper really mean a lot man. study so hard jus for a piece of paper that tells me my future. sigh* mux study very hard!!! ahhh!!!

i've gt A1 for my CCA. im considering going JC bah, cos i dowan to waste my CCA pts. bt i wanna go temasek JC, cos i can walk there. haha.

i like the lacoste perfume that he gave me. although i seldom wear perfume, bt occasionally i do wear them cos im afraid that it will evaporate. its packaging is nice also. hehe. i haven use finish da fcuk perfume that he gave me last 2 yrs. haha. i shall keep it :)

i wanna be a chef cos i like cooking, bt someone has to do the wash ups for me. i hate to wash dishes. i wanna buy a dish washer so i dun nid to wash bowls =x i've dreamt of opening a cafe where i can cook for ppl, bt i tink its just boring. what if ppl dowan come to my cafe? that would be a loss. haha. maybe i'll be a good female chef and ppl would hire me to their 5 stars restaurant to cook =D

i also want to be a hairstylist, cos i have the interest in learnin abt it. i see on tv how they master the skills of a professional hairstylist, and sometimes if u have the talent, within 1 yr u can be good. sometimes it takes up to 10 yrs. i dowan to be a old woman cutting hair for youngsters at a salon at that time. hahahaha. bt now, i wanna be a business woman, maybe a lawyer :) im a career woman type, i wanna work, i dowan to be a housewife. my husband cleans up the house while i do the cooking, that would be good. haha. and he washes the dishes for me. hahahaha. but i wan my husband to work and bring in some income mah. haha. oh why am i talkin abt these? LOL. dreams.

i have many slippers, i mean the flip flops kinds. i have 20+ different kinds of shoes. casual, simple, for outings, i have them all. haha. i like buying shoes, and he always complain whenever i stop and take a look at shoes. i fancy shoes more than clothes. haha. i haven master the skill of walking with heels yet. i can still walk bt oni short distance. LOL. and i haven wear some of my new shoes yet, and some i oni wear once, cos they give me blisters.

shall stop already. nidda watch tv :) italy please win. god bless.

*can my heart, that has been hurt thoroughly, still continue to love you?
*you only leave saddness to me that doesnt go away if u continue to love me.
*i want to awake the love that has been deserted. can it be done?
*sometimes, i wish someone out there will find me.

yawns.

ah, im so tired. lol.

i went hhd jus nw. tired sei. den headed changi village for makan. lol. goin to a hawker centre and eat was good and bad. good was the food tasted gd, bad was it was hot, stuffy and when i walk out of da hawker, i stinked.

when i reached home, mum ask me out for dinner. oh dear. lol. ate fishball noodles lah. saw mrs su. haha. seen her many times at my hse nearby. haha. gonna "fa fu" liao. means i gonna become fat fat fat!

ytd i asked stepfan to bet on italy bt he dowan. in da end lei, 3-0. nw he asks me for help and i told him to tk brazil bt he chose france. he's like a bonker. he wants my help and doesnt wan my help. siao lang LOL. oso dono will win nt. haha. i hope portugal wins.

okay im bored, and i wna talk abt mad dog.

i saw her on thurs at tm. and..... she suck-ed. it was bad of me to critise her dressing as mine werent good either, but im definitely better =P i shant elaborate wad she dress, bt its "auntie". dun blame me for sayin that, blame it on my foul mouth. too bad, cos u made me detest u. LOL

if u have da guts, why dun u dare look right in da face of christian's? y dun u dare split out "fuck off, serene" infront of serene? yaya, u oni have da guts to sit infront of ur com and typed out all da stinky words from ur puny brain. pls lah, u barked them out of nowhere (jus like a mad dog), its time when u learn ur doggie manners. haven ur master taught hw to behave and not be nasty. ur jus like a bulldog (should be bull-keng). haha.

for me, calling ppl names like "dog" its rude, bt for u, its worth it. LOL

i kept wondering y u attacked them like siao. is it because of jealousy, or because of fame? maybe because u are mad, so u r nick-named "mad dog". woof woof. nono, should be "KENG KENG". lol

my EL language is nt up to standard, and cant be tt slang as im a typical singaporean tt speaks broken english with many grammatical and vocab errors, bt i have more than enough words to describe u.

im tired, and shall continue next time. eyes are closing soon. gd nite mad dog bull-keng =D